BEING Young & Twenty Submission • Sky

BEING Young & Twenty Submission • Sky

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Sky Wilson
Sky Louise Wilson
Age • 20

“Fighting several mental illnesses along with life isn’t something I imagined myself doing.”

BEING Young & Twenty is a tricky subject for me.

Since I was young, I imagined my 20’s to be a certain way. I thought I would have an amazing job, have my life lined up, and start my own family by the time I was 25. Wishful thinking. I know.

I just turned 20 and my life doesn’t look anything like I thought it would. Actually, it looks the complete opposite. I’ve come to realize that life is unpredictable. You get taught that life is what you make of it – but if you’re already making something and it’s still not going your way – then what do you do?

Fighting several mental illnesses along with life isn’t something I imagined myself doing. Being 20 and being too scared to go to public places and be social reminds me of my once tiny mind.

Imagining all of these ambitions on what I would be doing by the time I was a ‘grown up’. Because that’s what I am. I could be completely wrong.

My 20’s could be the best years of my life.

Maybe something will come around the corner and surprise me.

We never really know what’s going to happen, positive or negative, so we have no choice but to go along with life and let it lead us to where it does.

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  • Great post, Sky!

    • Jennifer

      I certainly agree! Thank you for reading 🙂

  • Estrella

    Love the reference of mental illness because it’s something that’s so real and not talked about enough!
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    • Jennifer

      Hi, Estrella! I absolutely agree, although I also think that discussion about mental health is coming up more and more. Let’s hope it continues!

  • Sky, I’ve been through a lot, and my twenties were nothing like what I expected or wanted, either. I still feel stunted, immature broken pieces stuck in an aging body. I didn’t get to progress the way I wanted, and my journey was extremely rocky. It’s still hard to keep going, and I don’t want to discourage you or make it sound like everyone’s battle with depression is the same, but – for me anyway – depression is a way of life. It will always be there to drag me down, just as it has always been in the past. I have to find ways to work around it, or to incorporate it into my life, allowing it to have its moments without overtaking me. Sometimes I relish the depression, my oldest friend. I have found that it helps to talk, and that I often feel a greater improvement as a result of therapy than I do my cornucopia of drugs (although, that’s hard to say as I’ve been on so many for so long). You may want to consider joining an online forum for support, or at least utilize blogging sites where you can write and talk to other people who have experienced similar things.
    It has gotten better for me, and I want to say that it can or will get better for you, too. It’s not easy, every day is a battle, but it can be done.
    It took me longer than I wanted, but I did end up getting a degree, and I’m proud of myself for it.
    I still have a lot of goals, and a very far distance to go, but I understand that I have a lot more obstacles in front of me than many of my friends who have achieved things I envy. I don’t like it, but it’s a fact. I’m not where they are, and it may be a long time before I am.

    Don’t ever let anyone tell you your feelings aren’t valid. Don’t let them gaslight you and downplay your emotions. Your experiences are real. Don’t make my mistakes and let someone else push you around, hold you down, hold you back. Please feel free to contact me anytime if you’d like to talk.

    Jennifer, thank you so much for finding my blog and liking my post! I’m glad I found you, too.